Hello everyone, welcome. This is my very first post, and to be continued be filled with my journeys.
I'm Wayfarer Illusionist. It's supposed to be Wayfarer of Illusions but due to character limit it's shortened!
But yeah, as consequence, the two have totally different meanings.
Anyhow, I'm really not new to this. I have been working on going into the phase for months, if not years, with constant failure. I believe it's because I think of both the phase and my school pressure. Going to sleep is more like hell for me as I keep thinking of how I ever finish my homework and projects, even on weekends.
But since coming summer, my motivation going to the phase is coming back. Now, with the heavy pressure gone, I believe I have spontaneous "phase dreams". Days after that, I finally have one, despite insomniac problems.
Here as follows:
Have trouble sleeping at 9:00PM so hard that I keep on rolling around. Thankfully, I finally slept around 11:40PM(my last time check before I fell asleep). Then I woke up around 2 or 3:00AM. Man, I'm still struggling, so I went down to drink something, also went to the bathroom just in case to prevent pee problems from waking me up again. After this, still struggling. This is the first time I have so much insomnia. Then I tried not to move, and forget my body by distracting myself. I look at the darkness that we normally see when we sleep. I feel it didn't distract me enough so I randomly visualized things. I also try to "feel" in my visualizations, like trying to perceive the rubbing texture of the wall in my bedroom. This caused some sort of a "rebound" in my conscious and made me fell drowsy. I work on it harder until an imagery zoomed in.
Now this is the time I accidentally went to the phase.
As I remembered, as it zoomed I saw a living room with two slime like, cartoony creatures that looks like Pou in an android game, sitting on a sofa. Then I 'm in the living room. As I saw it, I believe I'm in the phase, as I'm supposed to be fighting my insomnia. I palpitated around the walls and it deepened somehow. I tried reality checks, one is "finger through palm" and it failed twice, but I remembered 12padams "inhale through pinched nose" check and for the first time some clean cold air passed in my nose. Now I see the room has mint green walls, opposed to be covered by brown tiles in my house. So yep, it confirmed I'm in the phase and thought of my plan of action. Unfortunately I'm done palpitating already and didn't wrote all plans before so I tried my childhood dream, shapeshifting. It failed though, then I'm black out. I end up in the same position, lying in my bed distracting away to have sleep.
It's pretty much a short experience, I feel it only lasted 5 seconds. Oddly, I interpret it as a dream, despite I have at least think logically in there. I'm pretty sure I have the same scenario like 12padams in his Entering-the-Phase book. Even my mind trying to convince otherwise, I can't doubt it, I'm in the phase...
Wow I never knew I'll type this long... I have totally weird "dreaming about the phase" kind of dreams (that I also take them as "training grounds" before the real thing occurs) that I also wanted to share, but this is too long now. I think I'll add them sometime.
Hope I can have other people to discuss more about this, also I hope you guys enjoy.